im here without you baby........

oh.....im back online again......ya......i actually did a little soul searchin this few days after cal told me that i shoulnt even do it cause the answers will be the same....but i was packin stuff yesterday and i found this christmas card that says

season greetings
merry christmas

(if you like shiwen, go for it!)

-calanthea

i found that card from cal...thousands of year ago....not to blame it on you or anythin but dont blame it on yourself....i thought about it....maybe i maybe just a little rush in things, and i just thought, why not let go of everythin now and just wait till i come back......but bottom line.....i still like her( shiwen) and iv come too far to just lose another time, it will be the final and last time......im going to gamble one more time, if its right, good, if its wrong, i can tell myself that iv tried very hard, and just let her go..........thats wat im going to do......i think thats wat im going to do..........and these few days....hard days......been thinking and missing......but this picture will keep me through everythin and give me the courage to fight through the rest of the years in my life......this picture.....

两个人不等于我们-王力宏

醒来只有我一个人
分不清黄昏或清晨
空气微冷有甚么在流失慢慢降温
一颗心往下沉
毕竟只是太短的梦
彼此终于退回陌生
我加上你两个人并不等于我们
你想我吗会偶尔想我吗
是这样吗飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗如果诚实回答
可是爱也不是解答
空屋子里没有回声
但我记忆有你指纹
我加上你两个人却并不等于我们
你想我吗会偶尔想我吗
是这样吗飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗如果诚实回答
可是爱也让人疲乏
你知道吗我心快要溶化
是这样吗压抑的会爆发
你爱我吗爱我就懂我吗
告诉我善意的谎话
告诉我善意的谎话
好让我相信我不是太傻