Theres actually some good in me

i found new family, i found new brothers and sisters, new friends, new relationships but

JULY till......

OCTOBER.....

3 months iv not posted a single post, its not like me.

when school started i promised to hit the reset button one more time, go to school
be good, work and just get through this 2-3 more years of school...
yet again. i fail, mid into the semester i find myself dropped out of classes and
now dropping 1 more. not worse than before but far worse that i expected.
i changed after coming back from taiwant this holiday. im more polite, i think about others.
i do nice things like washing dishes. i dont spend much more, i watch out for oily food and food thats not good for health. iv made a lot of changes but are those changes enough to be exchanged for the classes that iv dropped? the coursese that iv wasted? the times iv sacrifice?
i dunno, i just dont know

i dunno who will be reading this post since iv not posted for 3 months

but what i do know is
im still trying to give up on her.