............and slowly eating me alive

everyones away, busy, at a concert, not picking up, going for dinner, or eating dinner.

no one to talk to.
no one that will listen.
no one that is willing to listen.

why would anyone even bother or want to listen to my same old story again and again and again?

i dont know if anyone want to but if someone were to tell me something like what im wanting to say, id listen to them day and night because they need a listener.

saying it out really helps you feel better.

but today, no medicine will cure my inner darkness
no pills will kill my pain away.
no dreams can keep my mind away from my inner fear, insecurity.

its getting early. 5.39a.m here now.......trying to call someone that is free and is willing to listen to my same old story again again.....

if anyone could help me i think its people from my past, my childhood, from my happiest times in my life. if anyone could help me.

everyday i think of her and it just hurts me more.
i cant stop thinking of her everyday.
its been like that for so long....years and years....

if there is a god up there looking after.
please help me tie this nod together with me and her.

amen.