everytime i seem to be almost there at least giving it a first try, something comes up.and 4 out of 5 times is that i have to leave, no time. why cant time be my friend and let me freestyle for a bit before i leave so at least i can tell myself that i actually tried?1 out of 2 times her birthday is coming up and everything seems to be going okay when a phone call just comes and ruins everything and make me go off track. now im all confused.

they say if you love someone, go for it.

but it seems to me that going for it may seem impossible.

i dunno.

it wasent love at first sight for this person.
it wasent love of desperation for this person
it wasent love of obssesion with this person

she is the closest i have ever been to.
she is the closest i have ever felt.
she is the closest i have ever lived.

we live in 2 different worlds.
so far apart that just wanting to see each other is hard enough, not to mention going on movie or something.
iv always thought about the positive everytime i came in this kinda situation.
but for her,
i thought about the negatives too.
i always thought its a different thing to know that someone likes you and actually hearing them say that they like you.
so iv kept my mouth silence.

im struggling between the pros and cons of whether to say it or not.
i dont want to hurt her, if she has the same feelings for me too
i dont want to hurt myself, if she has the same feelings for me too.
this might just be another false alarm.
another mistake.

her birthday is coming up, im hoping that at least i can do something special for her.