regreting....

ever felt that someday you realize something, a mistake that you made to begin with that changed your whole life and now its too late?

i tried to move on.

but liking someone for so long and having such strong feelings for someone special is hard to get over with, its been almost 7 years now. and 7 years of feelings dont just disappear over night.

but now i realize.

that the mistake was me all along...the wrong question and mistake that i made.

if i asked the right question.

will our future be like this now? will we be so distant from each other? will we have cry our hearts out to each other so many times that we lost count? will i even be blogging now?

it hurts even more now...

it hurts everytime i think about it.

it hurts everytime i try to move on.

it hurts everytime i see her pictures.

it hurts now more than ever...but if i had asked the right question would things have changed?

can i still change history?
can i alter my mistake and make things right this time?
can i hold my future in my palms and be in control of it and not let it slip away?
can i hold onto happiness and hold it and love it and cherish it?

im regreting....as the dark side now takes over me even more, i dont know how long i can hold till the dark side pulls me down into that dark hole of eternity.

mary jane: everybody needs help, peter, even spider man.

can someone help me?