Alyve

When you want what you've never had you must do what you've never done

Monday, July 31, 2006

R-E-T-A-R-D-E-D

omg.....ya...went to friends house yesterday and watch him play mahjong...than slept at 5....woke up at 10......than just finished work...i got a cold officially.....and tommrrow no work so good.....and im officially going to be sick tommrrow....cause not been eating well after the freaking time change from taiwan and here 15 hours different.....and rewind back one day....now my mind and body is all wierd.....and ting i sent your letter out today....and yz...maybe monday...and ting you will be getting 1 more on monday too...so 2...one for last week and 1 for this week....im just not in a mood now to say anything....very tired and alot of things going on my mind.....so peace out my peasants......all hail to the KING!!!


恋爱达人-罗志祥小s

hey you 就是你请靠近我怀里别假装不在意你明明动了心
so baby 就是你请不要再犹豫我们玩个游戏叫 l-o-v-e

(girl)给你一分钟你若还不行动你就是没种装再酷也就都没用
(boy)宝贝你不会懂我就是要你心急我恋爱能力可是达人的等级 come on
hey you 就是你请靠近我怀里别假装不在意你明明动了心
so baby 就是你请不要再犹豫我们玩个游戏叫 l-o-v-e yah~let's be cool~

(boy)眼神不能在乎态度若有似无你自然就会跟我走(baby)请上钩
(girl)你到底行不行尽玩无聊的招数我看过的猪可是达人的程度 come on
hey you 就是你请靠近我怀里别假装不在意我可能喜欢你
so baby 就是你请说你很开心我有点喜欢你有点喜欢你

(rap) un...爱是个野东西它让我的心变成了谈恋爱的机器谁遇见你
连达人也会认输 yeah~为什么是你我只想问 un...ya...为什么喜欢你

(boy)我已喜欢你 yeah...
(girl) you so cute...so wan't you come to me猪头才会一直玩游戏耍心机
baby 就是你请靠近我怀里别假装不在意我想我喜欢你
so baby 就是你请说你也愿意我一直喜欢你一直喜欢你

(rap)恋爱达人的终点就是追到你没有规则这游戏永远继续
不用躲避因为没有输赢 yah yah*2

baby 就是你请靠近我怀里别假装不在意我想我喜欢你
so baby 就是你请说你也愿意我非常喜欢你 yah~
非常喜欢你 yes i do~ yes i do∏常喜欢你

Saturday, July 29, 2006

M-I-N-D B-L-O-W-I-N-G

lol, just finished talkin to yt on the phone for 2 hours and 1 minute and 20 secs.....i think her phone no batt, but anyways, it broked the record for longest time talkin to her and the first time iv talked to her this long in united states, 2 records! anyways.......it was the most mind blowing experience iv ever had listening to the hello'a and the ooookay.....and the oookaaay! and the bye, bye bye, bbbyyyeee, bbbyeee, bbbyyye, and the bbbbbbbbbye, and the byyyyyyyyyye and the byeeeeeeeee......lol....funny sia.....anyways...just thought i blog now for you to have somethin to laugh about later when you go home when im sleeping........and anyways.....hope our talk made you feel more better......

戒不掉-庾澄庆
黑夜将城市笼罩
想念蔓延在细胞
想你的拥抱
你的微笑
想到快要疯掉
爱你到莫名其妙
上了瘾无可救药
没有你
会死掉

我不再开心的笑
痛苦在胸口燃烧
在你离开以后
寂寞把我逼进了墙角
不听别人的劝告
才掉进你的圈套
现在知道
却放不掉
世界慢慢的变老

戒不掉对你的依靠
失去重心该怎么好
每个表情都能治疗
相思的煎熬
戒不掉你对我的好
像被关在想念的牢
只剩寂寞缠绕着我
我无路可逃
就是戒不掉对你的依靠
就是戒不掉你对我的好

Friday, July 28, 2006

So many....

Realized somethin,
Different first times, all happened on you
so many first times that iv never had before
Different feelings, all came from you
so many first times that mean something
she's the first one i really argued with, made me realize that forgiving someone is easy but really taking them back in thier life is hard, i didnt know that till now, cause its another first time.......
this song explains my feelings

很想说-李圣杰
(you are so beautiful to me~~)
在我眼里你永远最美
连你一个微笑也都会让我醉
你所谓的幸福我想给
以为手不放开就是痴心绝对
太愚昧难道
笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了
终於懂了真的
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
my love~笑容没了距离有了快乐也走了
还是真心死了彼此不信任了
终於懂了真的很
想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说你真的忘记了
爱了就有坚持理由
别说我会留在路口
不会走
爱你会直到最後
很想说有你是幸福的
很想说我的心是你的
很想说你真的误解了
很想说你真的忘记了
很想说会好好疼你的
很想说爱你是自由的
很想说你是否听见了
很想说我们可不可以
复合

Thursday, July 27, 2006

W-H-Y

im tired...of everything....
i cant take it anymore...lookin at the people i hate startin from now everyday till the day i get my freedom....
i cant take it anymore......cant see those i want to see and those that want to see me.....
i cant take it anymore.....y does it matter and y does it not matter?
i cant take it anymore.....the lie you told me....the lie you said to me....
i thought you said you will never lie to me.....
i dont get it.....why did you lie to me?

范逸臣-i believe

i believe 当我在你家门口下雨了你看了也会难过
i believe 你不说话的时候也是一种其实你在回应我
虽然不曾说相信你正在懂就算牵的不是我的手我不真的难过
不知道在高兴什么你的笑容有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么只告诉自己i believe 你总会看到我
在某个时候想让你陪伴的是我

i believe 没有回应的时候只不过正好你在电话中
i believe 语音信箱的沉默也是一种其实你在倾听我
虽然不曾说相信你正在懂就算牵的不是我的手我真的不难过
不知道在高兴什么你的笑容有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么只告诉自己i believe 你总会看到我
在一切之后留在你身边的是我

那也许太久的也是冲动在你身后的独角戏聚光灯没亮过
怀疑是自己编造的内容你从不真的认得我
不知道在高兴什么你的笑容有时候也宁可当作你在为我加油
不知道在妄想什么只告诉自己i believe一定会有结果
在很久以后留在你身边的是我
陪着你的人是我

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

The Champ is back!!!!

alright people, im back to U.S now...and im using SKYPE........go www.skype.com and check it out...anyways....now im sleepy so ill check back later with you guys but hey im darn happy now cause.....YZ forgive me! damn im tired.....goodnight....

Saturday, July 22, 2006

Leavin...........

im leavin taiwan on tuesday.......but heard there is going to be a hurricane.......so...if im lucky.....dont go back for a couple days more!!!!!!!!!! peace....

Friday, July 21, 2006

No more.....

NO MORE............................

Thursday, July 20, 2006

UNwritten..........

the rest is just Unwritten....................................

Saturday, July 15, 2006

thank you......for everything......

i got nothin else up my sleeves to make you forgive me....except one last thing that you will be gettin.......and when you get it....please read it.....if it doesnt help.....
tell me we are done.....
tell me our friendship is over here....
tell me that you dont want me as a friend....
tell me that i suck...
tell me that i hurt you so bad.....
tell me to GET OUT OF your life.....

thank you.......................

潘玮柏-谢谢

黄昏下的琴键太寂寞
来来去去只剩很拙的双手
陪着固执的我
不停弹奏不停地犯错
想起他为你唱歌时的温柔
我会笑着难过
他能给你保护代替我的照顾
这是我最后的祝福
谢谢你的结束冷却后的残酷
谢谢你的知足告诉我别再付出
谢谢你的温度记忆留在最初
谢谢你曾让我幸福
不停唱着愈来愈清楚
想起你看他眼神中的满足
我学会了服输
我只能偷偷地为你祝福
想着手心的感触
想着脸颊的温度
谢谢你那些年为我付出

谢谢你曾让我们幸福

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Unloved.......

the things you said to me

the things you thought i said

the words you said to me

the words you thought i said

the mistake that i made

the mistake that you will not forgive me for

the feelings that i show you

the feelings that you show me

the misunderstand that i made

the misunderstand that you are angry for

the time that i have left

the time that you gave me

the memories that i have

the memories that you had

im sorry..............

S.H.E-恋人未满

为什么只和你能聊一整夜为什么才道别就又想见面在朋友里面就数你最特别总让我觉得很亲很贴为什么你在意谁陪我逛街为什么你担心谁对我放电你说你对我,比别人多一些却又不说是多哪一些友达以上恋人未满甜蜜心烦,愉悦混乱我们以后会变怎样我迫不及待想知道答案再靠近一点就让你牵手再勇敢一点我就跟你走你还等什么时间已经不多再下去只好只作朋友再向前一点点我就会点头再冲动一点点我就不闪躲不过三个字别犹豫这么久只要你说出口你就能拥有我为什么你寂寞只想要我陪为什么我难过只肯让你安慰我们心里面明明都有感觉为什么不敢面对我不相信都动了感情却到不了爱情那么贴心却进不了心底你能不能快一点决定对我说我爱你

Monday, July 10, 2006

I love dreamin......

damn, was watchin the soccer game yesterday watched almost the whole thing, italy won but i dont care...just watchin cause its going to be embarrasin if i dont know who won the WORLD CUP.....so ya.....damn that stupid zidane headbutt that guy, cool but red flag for his good skill, than it was ite till the end and its time for PK! than that stupid guy from france didnt get the goal in....i wanted to watch tie again and see wat happens....than italy won and took off thier pants and celebrated.......watever....screw soccer...oh ya...than i had this DREAM of the year!!!!omg it was so good ....so realistic...damn i love it.......was so into it....and this time i woke up on my own and no one woke me up...but i cant go on with it....wanted to continue...but omg....lovin it....damn it felt like real....omg!!!!!!...than i went out with my cousin brother and went to eat dinner...tommrrow going to play poker and play bball......nothin to do this few days......i dont have the courage to call her because....i dunno.....i just dont want to call her....i want to but only if she wants to pick up....but guessed she doesnt......maybe i liked the wrong person......but im happy that i got to know her, even though our friendship is at the edge of the cliff..................

蔡依林-Mr.Q

数一数每天你撞见我的次数
赌一睹你的神情中有爱慕
与其辛苦又要耍酷又要埋伏
那么何不让爱快一点倾巢而出
(一窝蜂都装酷不醒目)
hey u,mr.q 爱你耍q的指数
电流向瀑布好像重力加速度
你又杀又无辜
与生俱来的功夫
加快脚步要加入连署
说你愿意为了我幸福开始吃素
放弃森林好好只照顾一棵树木
我的付出一辈子都不会辜负
所有害怕从此有你拔刀相助
(我爱你的赌注不怕输)
hey u,mr.q 爱你耍q的指数
电流像瀑布好像重力加速度
你又杀又无辜与生俱来的功夫
加快脚步要加入连署
hey u,mr.q

Sunday, July 09, 2006

lost.......in reality......

ya......dunno why...guessed i made a BIG mistake......just looked at the horoscope and was just joking with you....dont take it too seriously.....i mean do i look and sound like the person that will judge you like this? come on.......dont take it too seriously.....just joking....i thought you were joking too.....your message was "ya...the horoscope is SOO accurate....." i thought you were joking....but i made a mistake so im sorry....my bad.....i screwed up.......really sorry.....called from 6 to 9 .........and i have press 0229121551 than press 1 for english than press the password which is 24555***** and plus a # key than press 0026591****** and plus a #.......i called for 3 hours straight.......come on....im sorry....you are the first person that i called for so long just to apologize......fine....i made a mistake and i wanted to call myself...you didnt tell me to call...ya..true.....but could you please just let me know wat can i do? im sorry.....but if thats the end between us...than so be it.......its your choice.....but tell me.......msg me or anythin and just say "screw you kingston! we are done!" somethin like that.....and ill gladly stop contactin you......but i hope you are fine.......yup....and thats all for now...ya..hey guys my cousins are back from canada! and thats fun cause i got people to ahng out with now instead of playing com and watchin TV till like 5 in the mornin everyday..........so ya....busy next few days...but should be able to come online......drop me a tag or somethin....im here! and im out! peace! and P.S this song is FU**IN good.......................

李聖傑-最近

你最近不说话 怎麽了为什麽 是不是有什麽事让你不快乐 听说你最近很孤单 有点乱有点慌 可是我却不能够在你的身旁 你想要的 我却不能够给你我全部 我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的 我们不适合也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭 你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束 不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路 爱我却不能给你我全部 我能给的 却又不是你想要拥有的 我们不适合也不想认输 好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭 你常解释这样的一切都只是开始 我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束 不想再约束 不要再痛苦 下一次会有更好的情路 这一次我们都能很幸福

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

im here without you baby........

oh.....im back online again......ya......i actually did a little soul searchin this few days after cal told me that i shoulnt even do it cause the answers will be the same....but i was packin stuff yesterday and i found this christmas card that says

season greetings
merry christmas

(if you like shiwen, go for it!)

-calanthea

i found that card from cal...thousands of year ago....not to blame it on you or anythin but dont blame it on yourself....i thought about it....maybe i maybe just a little rush in things, and i just thought, why not let go of everythin now and just wait till i come back......but bottom line.....i still like her( shiwen) and iv come too far to just lose another time, it will be the final and last time......im going to gamble one more time, if its right, good, if its wrong, i can tell myself that iv tried very hard, and just let her go..........thats wat im going to do......i think thats wat im going to do..........and these few days....hard days......been thinking and missing......but this picture will keep me through everythin and give me the courage to fight through the rest of the years in my life......this picture.....
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两个人不等于我们-王力宏

醒来只有我一个人
分不清黄昏或清晨
空气微冷有甚么在流失慢慢降温
一颗心往下沉
毕竟只是太短的梦
彼此终于退回陌生
我加上你两个人并不等于我们
你想我吗会偶尔想我吗
是这样吗飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗如果诚实回答
可是爱也不是解答
空屋子里没有回声
但我记忆有你指纹
我加上你两个人却并不等于我们
你想我吗会偶尔想我吗
是这样吗飞扬的会落下
你爱我吗如果诚实回答
可是爱也让人疲乏
你知道吗我心快要溶化
是这样吗压抑的会爆发
你爱我吗爱我就懂我吗
告诉我善意的谎话
告诉我善意的谎话
好让我相信我不是太傻

Monday, July 03, 2006

MY BDAY........

ya...im in the cyber cafe now and kinda horny and bitchy and bossy now...dont know why.....but my 3 hours of internet is almost up..im in the cyber cafe now anyways....yup....i read weeho's blog.....so i found out that i didnt blog for my Bday....ill do that now....and the chalet fun times blog will be up next few days...here we go....my birthday was on june 30th...i celebrated in singapore first and now back in taiwan......i was up on june 29th.....talked to yz for quiet a while.....than mom got pissed......than it was midnight and yz messaged me happy birthday...than i called back and she said it to me...it was the first time she said it to me and was the first one to say it...than i went into my mom's room and she wished me too and i got a red packet......than i watched tv till like around 1....than calsy called...and second one.......than no one officially called......i felt so alone and hopeless.....it was my birthday.....than i went to slp...than morning my grandma gave me red packet and wished me too...thats 4....than yt msg me and wished me too...thats 5....than i went to see the doctor and than dentist than went to eat dinner with my mom friend..i was msging yz for the whole day pretty much...dunno how much i spent alr on phone bills.........didnt do ANYTHING i F U C K I N G WANT on my BDAY.......ALL HER PLANS....omg....im used to it....than went home with just around 20 minutes left...took out the candles that YZ gave me........made a wish....blew it...kept it abck to the box....than my uncle and aunt came back and my aunt game me a red packet too....thats 6 people that wished me happy birthday on my birthday.........thats all...6.......thats sad......worst that wat i got when i was in U.S....thats was my birthday.................sad......

王力宏-不要害怕

不要害怕
不要害怕
爱一个人其实并不复杂
不要害怕
不要害怕
过去的眼泪用今天去擦
午夜的两点半
我去不进梦乡
时间在逃亡
悲伤还在原地方
我将一床被单
绞成混乱一片
爱已经灭亡
然而思念更坚强
不要害怕
不要害怕
爱一个人其实并不复杂
不要害怕
不要害怕
过去的眼泪用今天去擦
我答应自己不要放弃
我答应自己不要忘记
闭上眼想一遍
你转身的模样
每一个角度 都好像一种飞翔
我因为看着你
回忆你而悲伤
是你在心里不断的想

Sunday, July 02, 2006

A normal 17 year old teenager? i dont think so...

im lost, im here without you, im here alone, all by myself, i need a hug, i need a kiss, i need confidence, i need bravery, i need love, i need passion, i need self confidence, i need self asteam, i need courage, i need life, i need you............its been like 1 week since i last blogged, ya, ill tell all my chalet stories day by day but not now, not my own com....so....came back to taiwan alone.....been depressed.....alright fine i played mahjong yesterday....yes...won......but i was just depressed yesterday.....really sad....just thinkin about my life, all the bad memories and future that i knew will be happening, makes me sad......did i do somethin worong? chose the wrong the path? i missed 2 years of fun, now its goin to be 3,4 maybe 5 or 6 years of my childhood...and my love life, my friends, my life, my family, im pressured.....everyone is unique......everyone is different.....but im just too unique.....too different.....a 17 year old that is way more different that anyone else......im done for today......(cry...cry...)

永邦-你是我最深爱的人

爱上了一个人
能够为她牺牲
就算付出了生命
我甘心为了你

两个人在一起
分享爱的命运
永远都不会忘记
我们生活点滴

你是我最深爱的女人
你有最美丽的嘴唇
你拥有最动人的眼神
你带给我幸福和快乐

我是你最深爱的男人
我的爱绝对是永恒
做什么都值得
爱上了一个人