this is us?

either its emotions building up, or just that im wierd.

but i think its because i always keep things to myself and i dont express it out and say it out and share it out like other people do. thats why im the way i am now.

but i dont have the privilege like others do to have friends that they can chat till 3am about a girl or a guy they just met,

about school,

about life,

about parents,

about dreams,

and maybe its excuses, lame excuses from running away from the truth.

but this time, i dont even have the balls to step up and make a move.

i think its cause im scared,

im tired,

im sick of getting rejected,

im sick of awkward moments,

im sick of thinking about things like that,

a good friend once said, when love comes, you cant even stop it.

a good friend also once said, if its meant to be, it will happen.

another good friend also once said, time will tell.

but i think its time i accepted the truth, accept faith and destiny and accept what iv become.

a lonely, single, self minded, childish, man.

i might not come back again,

i might not see you again,

i might just walk away forever,

i might just pass up this chance between us,

but i dont have the sign and i have too much to lose.

im sorry.