Consistant.Consistant.Consistant.Consistant.Consistant.Consistant.Consistant.Consistant.Consistant.............

lakers beat portland 96/76 changing is not the onlything in our lives that make us better or worse. i found out the answer the hard way, its 1 word

consistant.

easy simple the word explains itself.
if we keep consistant in our work ethic we will do good
if we keep consistant in our attitude and manners we will do good
if we keep consistant in our good habits we will do good
if we keep consistant in our goals and dreams we will do good
if we keep consistant
if we keep consistant
if we keep consistant
if we keep consistant
if we keep consistant......................................................................

its hard to keep consistant though, im trying. i can say that everyone that i know right now are having dramas, hard times, stress, bad days, and all that shit

but its all about consistant.

forgetting her 1 day does not make me forget everything,
remembering her 1 day(another her) does not make me remembe everything
loving her 1 day(same her as 1 and 2) does not make me love her with my all

i hope that 1 day i can look in the sky and say to her(1 and 2 ) that iv tried my best.

Theres actually some good in me

i found new family, i found new brothers and sisters, new friends, new relationships but

JULY till......

OCTOBER.....

3 months iv not posted a single post, its not like me.

when school started i promised to hit the reset button one more time, go to school
be good, work and just get through this 2-3 more years of school...
yet again. i fail, mid into the semester i find myself dropped out of classes and
now dropping 1 more. not worse than before but far worse that i expected.
i changed after coming back from taiwant this holiday. im more polite, i think about others.
i do nice things like washing dishes. i dont spend much more, i watch out for oily food and food thats not good for health. iv made a lot of changes but are those changes enough to be exchanged for the classes that iv dropped? the coursese that iv wasted? the times iv sacrifice?
i dunno, i just dont know

i dunno who will be reading this post since iv not posted for 3 months

but what i do know is
im still trying to give up on her.