It Hurts Alot

but its time to let it go,
there is someone better out there,
someone who is more perfect than she already is,
or simply just also perfect.

No More.

i gave my heart and gave my mind,

with this drawing comes an end to this long, long, one love.

Happy 18th birthday. miss ya always.

If you love someone,let them go...

let it go

The Reason

its time to decide,i got the money, time is no problem, school is not a problem ever.

time to decide, if its worth it, or is it not.

you met her this life,
you like her so much that you love her,
you are willing to sacrifice so much for her,
you willing to sacrifice one last time?
just to get an answer that most likely you already knew but you disbelieve it?
live for nothing, or die for something.

your call.

New Year, New Hair

New Year.



New Hair.




New Hopes.




New Life.

As i walk through the valley of the shadow of death........

As i walk throught the valley of the shadow of death, i know heavenly father in the name of lord jesus christ, will be watching over me to guide me.

ty, lord.

oh hey, new hair by the way, and aurelia, this is call SHORT

Surrounded by your glory.....

i think new years resolution numbe 3 and 19 are well done and 99.9 percent accomplished.

3) stop spending too much money
19) stop gambling.....

i think im well on my way to my new years and school is starting next week, that means my scholarship money is on the way, and that means paying off credit card, and that means open cash to DO THE THING, (hint-relates to number 1 in new years resolution)

so erm........i still havent decided if to go with the plan, i guess things just always turn out the way you didnt plan.

4 months ago in hawaii on my laptop, i had everything planned out. nice and spotless. prefect. but nothing in there came to life. nothing, is it cause im lazy? dont think so, is it cause i cant follow the plan? dont think so, i think its cause the feelings just start to slowly drift away but everytime i see something related to it, my heart just bleeds and gets torn apart literally, it hurts....i dunno why.......it reallyhurts......i wish someone would make that pain stop and give me some happiness to heal my heart.........i dunno why but iv been praying to jesus recently, and i guess he answered most of my prayers.....

maybe like yz's mom said, i should go to churh maybe, you cant always rely on yourself to take care of everything, maybe everyone needs someone to share thier pain and happiness with when they have no one too...andmaybe the only person who is always there is him, the heavenly lord himself. like mercyme's song i can only imagine.....

i need a hug, just a sincere and truthful and warm hug, and i SWEAR that ill feel much BETTER

LIKE REALLY.......

IM LIKE REALLY SERIOUS....

maybe not 378, but if really to count...hold on...let me count....

558 days counting from june 26 of 2006.......

and that day was the first anniversary of....

HAHA

HAHA.....THATS ALL......

had like the best DAY OF MY LIFE IN THE LAST 378 days...............

LIKE OMG......

New Years Resolution.

alright,

1) GIVE UP ON SHIWEN. ITS TIME.
2) earn lots of money
3) stop spending too much money
4) be more organized
5) be more hardworking(as in schoolwork)
6) become a excellent basketball player
7) become a excellent runner
8) become a excellent singer(still practicing)
9) grow taller
10) sleep more
11) break as many records as i can
12) enjoy as much as i can when i can(does that make any sense?)
13) stop eating too much candy
14) find more friends and be lucky to find one i can count on (here in the states)
15) find someone i love( ill just wait for it to come)
16) donate as much money as i can.
17) stop yelling to me mom all the time
18) keep lying to my dad to have him send money here
19) stop gambling
20) get laid!!!!!!( lol jk)

i think thats it. but ya.....havent made any happen yet....lol....