just casual, nothing much

its wierd, but here it is, this asian was there when i first went in to the badminton class, it was just me and her, than the second time too, sounds wierd but so she is in my badminton class and we played today on the opposite team on doubles, than at night, i was delivering for my work, and when i went to the college dorms where the college that i go to, she came out to pick up the order! i was like WOW, she was like you work there? im like yeah, and she is like oh.....and im like well now you got my number, she was like ya i got your number and i can get discount!!! and im like sure...than i walked away and im thinking, hhmm......since i want to watch resident evil 3 and good luck chuck this friday, why not ask her if she wants to go along, but i got work at 5 so have to finish before 5 of course.....lol, but ill call her up tommrrow, yup, just casual, nothing much.....lol

what am i missing?

hhmmn........i got 0 incoming calls today.......i got 1 incoming call from work yesterday to buy coffee.....i got 0 incoming call the day before yesterday......whats wrong??? no one is calling me? oh i know why, cause im so stubborn and such an asshole that i have no friends. is it cause of money? no, is it cause of work? no, is it cause of my attitude, my problem? yes!!!! for christ sake, being around the whole world and getting to know so many people is really that not big of a deal, so what if you have friends from singapore, malaysia,thailand,bangkok, united states, hawaii, taiwan, so wat? NOBODY FUCKING CALLS YOU!!!!! omg! problem with them? maybe, problem with you? definitely!!!! why the fuck do i fucking have no friends???? god damn it, jesus guys i know, blah...blah...of course you got friends....just that they are busy....well we've gone through all that, i dunno why, but today is another reliazation day. what am i missing? why do i have the best phone around but i got the worst incoming call record? i seriously dont know, loneliness is clouding me again.....i can call, can i? but well, no one answers and no one wants to talk or no one is free. what have i done to myself, my life to come to 18 years old but have no road trips, no movie pals, no one, i went to the past 4 movies myself! for christ sake, thats a fucking new record! god damn it kingston, you suck more than anyone you know! not only no calls but i sit in my car with my air condition on and dont know where to go, wow! thats a first! well you know why kingston? cause you fucking have no friends that want to hang out with you!!!! now you only go to work, go home, sleep, school and homework, your life right now has no friend in it, not even 1!!!!! cant you just have a friend and keep them close? what have you done????/ i seriously dont know kingston, what the hell is wrong with you. well i think you know. everyone else knows, thats why they aint calling you. but well who cares.

im not weak

im not weak
im not strong
but please dont push my button.

UNLV

okay i got the sign that i should go to UNLV, but i dont know about it....i want to go there, but same thing might happen like hawaii......i dont know....but give me another sign about you know what, right now thats the most important thing....thanks

Busy

hey, i was busy so i wasent really paying attention and i was like feeling miserable these couple days, so god would you show me the sign again? maybe i missed it. thank you

one more time?

god, 1 more sign please? this time make it so very obvious. thank you

I missed school

i want to go back to school, what i mean by is secondary school and college in singapore.

i missed it and i could never go back
i missed the fun
i missed the enjoyment of having so much friends
i missed sports day
i missed class activities
i missed a whole unified class
i missed teachers coming to class
i missed a form teacher
i missed lots
i missed happiness

im not complaining, just feeling miserable missing it.

No more

No more slacking off. by next year i want to be in the best shape of my life. its time i make some changes for the better.

no more waiting for jobs.(gonna start looking for jobs)
no more playing games.(waste money)
no more sleeping past 1a.m(bad for skin)
no more eating junk food.(bad for everything)
no more soda.(bad for health)
no more eating too much oil.(bad for skin)
no more everything thats bad.

its time i get things straight.

i miss you alot, and been dreaming about you. you're always here.

My Favourite song of all time

by the time you read this the music has already been played,

and well,

those that know this song.....you are now all ready to turn it off cause its well,

i dont have to say it,

feel it.....lol

but i love this song, i still listen to it everyday.

how to get $6600 in 4 months?

Hmm....difficult question to answer...

but i think it can be done.

and it will be.

If I Won.......

lol, mega million lottery went up to $330,000,000 U.S Dollars!!! i bought $5 and didnt win...but if i won....lol.....cant tell you what ill do but wait till i win......just jk....but well, fun is over cause someone else won it damn it!

anyways....moving tommrrow to a room that im renting from someone.....

a new place....

but my dream stays.....