what am i missing?

hhmmn........i got 0 incoming calls today.......i got 1 incoming call from work yesterday to buy coffee.....i got 0 incoming call the day before yesterday......whats wrong??? no one is calling me? oh i know why, cause im so stubborn and such an asshole that i have no friends. is it cause of money? no, is it cause of work? no, is it cause of my attitude, my problem? yes!!!! for christ sake, being around the whole world and getting to know so many people is really that not big of a deal, so what if you have friends from singapore, malaysia,thailand,bangkok, united states, hawaii, taiwan, so wat? NOBODY FUCKING CALLS YOU!!!!! omg! problem with them? maybe, problem with you? definitely!!!! why the fuck do i fucking have no friends???? god damn it, jesus guys i know, blah...blah...of course you got friends....just that they are busy....well we've gone through all that, i dunno why, but today is another reliazation day. what am i missing? why do i have the best phone around but i got the worst incoming call record? i seriously dont know, loneliness is clouding me again.....i can call, can i? but well, no one answers and no one wants to talk or no one is free. what have i done to myself, my life to come to 18 years old but have no road trips, no movie pals, no one, i went to the past 4 movies myself! for christ sake, thats a fucking new record! god damn it kingston, you suck more than anyone you know! not only no calls but i sit in my car with my air condition on and dont know where to go, wow! thats a first! well you know why kingston? cause you fucking have no friends that want to hang out with you!!!! now you only go to work, go home, sleep, school and homework, your life right now has no friend in it, not even 1!!!!! cant you just have a friend and keep them close? what have you done????/ i seriously dont know kingston, what the hell is wrong with you. well i think you know. everyone else knows, thats why they aint calling you. but well who cares.