Dec 21st 2012-Apocalypse

i know that we all changed,
you changed,
iv changed,

i know that i cant go back to the past and change things,
i know that iv said somethings that might have or might not have hurt your feelings
i know that you might not ever like me,

but

i want to let you know that you were once a big part of my life and you still are
i want you to know that you will always be in my heart
i want you to know that everyday i think of your for at least 100 heartbeats

and

i just want to be a part of your life too, should you allow me
i just want to be there for you when you need me, even though im far away,
i just want to play a part in your life that you might actually remember forever

so

im going to start to forget you bit by bit as much as i can, in physchology they call this repressing memory
im going to start to move on bit by bit as i repress you into my memory capsule deep in my heart
im going to start to stop thinking about every heartbeat by heartbeat

even though

i know that this is hard
i know that this is impossible because the feelings donts just disappear
i know that im lying to myself and lying to everyone to say that im even trying to give up

but it seems like theres just not going to be a "we" at the end of this story.