Alyve

When you want what you've never had you must do what you've never done

Tuesday, February 26, 2008

Fucking Its time now!!!!!!!

fucking wat the hell is going on with me,slept past school again for like the 8th time this year. omg. fucking so behind. fucking time to to rise up again, but wth has gone into me. cant even wake up.

for one more time, lord, lend me your divine power to guide me and lead me through this dark and evil hour in my life, with your presence fufill my duties and make me who i should be and you shall be glorified with my success. so here i pray lord, in your ultimatum, guide me as i walk through the valley of the shadow of death, and i shall walk out with light,power and a new man.a new DESTINY.

In the name of jesus christ-AMEN

Thursday, February 21, 2008

Down Time.

John Cena was injured by randy orton 4 months or so before his title defence match and doctors said that he will be out minimum of 6 months to 1 year. but he appeared and he did the impossible, because he believed and he trusted, he came back in 4 months.



somehow,someway, in everyone's life, there is a period of time where that person just crashes and its not like after a break up or anything, its not about work or anything, but its just, that your battery ran out, you just want to take a break to relax and recharge. and depending on what you did in your past, will result if you can actually come out of this hibernation the way you were, worst, or better thanever. okay, cut to the chase.

so since the week before, after 1 day of sleeping past school time and didnt go to school, i missed like a whole weekof school, more like 3 days only actually but i didnt go to school the whole week and saturday was president weekend so no school than this monday no school, but iv missed like 2 sessions, but thats not the point, through this restless period of time iv slept late and wake up late, like sleep at 5a.m and wake up at 8p.m the next day.

and i had this thought in 18 years that iv never had. i thought to myself, iv missed classes quite much, its a doubt if i can pass the classes this semester, a high doubt. i would ust like to pass it, i dont dream of a B or A but just a C will do. but iv had this thought, if i flunked this semester or if i should just drop all my classes and work full time 2jobs and earn hella money and work hard next semester, and than finish these classes i failed to accomplished this semester in summer school or in UNLV, vegas. that is a bad thought but i dont know. after 18 years, i thought to myself, i think thisperiod of time if i were to take a rest from school and just work, im making no mistake, im making nothing bad, i still can finish university in 4 years with a degree. why not?

and i have this theory or sort of my saying, i heard from somewhere.

Its never too late to regret
Its never too late to change
Its never too late to realise
Even when you are on the death bed.

thats my saying that i live off by, everytime i make a mistake or regret about something i did, i tell myself, its never too late to realise and regret and change. thats when i realise and make a change.

but anyways, i think im not thinking about dropping out this semester anymore sort of. ill do my best, cause theres another motto i live off by, thats john cena's

Never back down
Never quit.


-thats it.

Saturday, February 02, 2008

In The Land Of Women

just watched the movie on dvd. touching. i think im into this movie releasing stress and calming myself thing. like it kinda makes me figure out what i need to figure out.....like its my way of solving my problems........is every relationship just a transition till the perfect one comes?

i guess.

so what do i really need now?

i dont know. im trying to solve my life.

Friday, February 01, 2008

STEP UP 2

its time to step up just like iv always have,

been slacking off and thinking of stuff thats way out of my piority list now.

time to get back in the game. time to STEP UP.

watch it in theaters febuary 14th, VALENTINES day