time i rise up.

all those trash talking and all that shit came down to today. yes, something happen, i dont want to say it, its financial shit. but ya. realize something. its my job now to work and study and save and stuff, not time to have fun like any other people.

im born with this life.
its a gift, i have to be mentally tested throughout my life to learn and see through life
its a curse, i dont have a good life like those rich kids have.
its a lesson, to make me into a better man than i am than my father.
its a path, that im bron with and to get off that path, i need to be tested.
its a test, to see if i have the determination and will to overcome my genetics of my dad
its a class, that no money can buy you to be in it.

and now, im not depressed. if you know me, you know that i love challenges and excitement. i was going to have fun on christmas and enjoy myself with cal, but after today, its time i come to realize that friends are important but my future will determine my relationship with my friends.
so ya, i have to work on christmas, should be if my boss decides that i can work on that day again. but now, its time i rise up to the challenge, test,curse,lesson and fight it through.

i guess im depressed to learned that ill be working from everyday now on and not having enough slp and sleeping in school and going into college and doing what i have always been wanting to have, a teenagers adult life. working eveyday and eating instant noodles and stuff. but i got a better life than them, i have my mom here to be there for me. so im lucky.

its 11.30p.m now, half an hour later, its time i start a new life.

a new life that ill rise up from

a new life i would like to call.

RISE UP.