Dec 4

the day iv been waiting for 6 years

its time

to know the truth

let the truth be told.

THE CHAMP IS HERE!

thats right people i got 800/800 full score on my SAT chinese with listening, well no surprise, cause its so easy but i still got it!!!

yes!!! full score!!!! 800/800!!! the champ is here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhhh!!!!!

few more days....

yes

or

no?

well find out

30th november

its the day that every single high school student in america is scared, the deadline for UC and CSU application....

iv only submited to 1 CSU...

3 more to go....

sexual harrasement

alright, im getting FUCKING prank calls and they are sexual harrsements, i dont appreaciate this and so if you fucking see this god damn blog, cut it out, cause i filed a police report

and they are investigating this shit

i

miss you.....so much......

i dream about you almost everynight......

but

do you?

i missed......

i missed.........my oppurtunity to chase the girl i like so much
i missed.........the chance to learn and get a great PSLE score to get into a good school
i missed.........the time to spend with my friends at our childhood
i missed.........class gatherings
i missed.........calanthea's birthdays
i missed.........weeho's birthdays
i missed.........shiwen's birthdays
i missed.........janice's birthdays
i missed.........suwei's birthdays
i missed.........group tuition
i missed.........group studies
i missed.........my greatgrannys funeral
i missed.........movies with friends
i missed.........lots of sneak previews
i missed.........lots of prerealeses
i missed.........going back on teachers day
i missed.........national day
i missed.........childrens day
i missed.........going to friends party
i missed.........going to friends chalet
i missed.........going to friends house
i missed.........stayovers
i missed.........alot of things, i regret......the choices are hard but there is no going back. the thing i missed and regret the most is the time to chase you...........

flight

granny coming in about 14 more hours....lol she is on the plane already....long flight...

going to this Mom's irratating mother F-ed up friends house to eat TURkey for thanksgiving at FUCKING 12p.m.! AFTERNOON! who the fuck eats turkey at noon?

i know all the white people dont...lol

anyways...than she will keep running her mouth like she always do cause she has a big mouth...

than on our way to san francisco to buy this chair/bed that my mom wants for my 6 year old cousin

than we see granny coming out of the gate!!!!!!

yeah!!!!!

sweet...cause she bought some of my stuff......

work...work...work..

omg...i need another job now...

i need money!!!!!!!!

grandma is coming on thanks giving....

sweet....

its approaching......

the day iv been waiting for so long....

its been a long road..........

and its coming to an end.........

6 years now.......

its time...........

soon................

i miss you

grandma is coming

ah....

my grandma is coming again to america...

with my irratating cousin......

ah....

finally some dinner and lunch to eat.....

and some company.....

help me up

someone help me up and get me back on my feet......

please......

im sick....

very......

where are you when i need you?

if there is anytime that i need you, its now.....

sick

totally sick...burned throat....

getting a cold....

im sick....

im down....

im weak.....

where are you?

throat

my throat is burn, didnt go to school...

and ususally when i dont go to school....

im really SICK....

wanted to throw up....

but throat is burn, had to cycle myself to get medicine, cycle myself to get a hot soup...

and now im all alone at home no one to comfort me or shit and i have to go to sleep...after eacting medicine....omg....

i miss..........you

im falling apart

its time....again....im falling apart...

going home everyday...sleeping...computer....

NO homework.....

cough.....getting sick.....

haven applied for CSU yet...

no job.....

no money.....

i need someone to tell me and encourage me to step up and get back in the game.......

who will that be?
i know it wont be you....

omg..omg...

im feeling sick......lweather changed....

its so cold now....

wow....

im sick

but i still miss you alot....

omg

im broke.....

too much wasting money.....

need job.....

to earn and stop spending....

save......

save....

but anyways........

ya......i miss ya

i miss you

you are my love

i miss you

alot

do you miss me

i dunno

but i hope im right

that is the biggest bet iv been into my entire life

i hope it comes out to what i wish it will be

hah........

depression hit again

its back again....

omg

i hate it...

i was at work and its busy and customers giving shit to me

so i was thinking....

how good and sweet would it be

when i can call a girl after work

like

hey baby, just got off work, how was your day, i miss you

ya baby i guess work was hard huh

ya baby

omg baby i love you so much take a good night sleep and well hang out tommorrow

alright baby!

night

sleep tight...

and i hope that girl is you......

Bowling tommrrow

ya..so its veterans day tommrrow...dont even know wat that is....

but bowling is offering free bowling and free breakfast...

5.30a.m to 8.30 a.m....im expecting alot of people....so im going to go to sleep now and go at 5....its free!!!!!!!!!!!! yes!!!!!

for 3 hours!!!!!!!!

im with you

wow.....

i wanna take test on friday

permit test

im struggling for you

please just take care of yourself....

and i miss you

TUmmy Ache

i HAD this bad tummy ache in like 17 years....omg...it hurt like SHIT! ya thats right....and im kinda tired....i dont wanna be sick.....but ya......i maybe.....

anyways....

im just 1 more % to get out of track on things right now, applying for college and shit....

but you can make that 1% go back if you just say yes............

im not the perfect person

but i try to make you perfect

in every way i can

im not the perfect person

but i love you no matter wat happens

forever and ever

im not the perfect person

TRUST

i dunno wat to do now,

im feelin that i need you now more than ever

but

i know its impossible

but

i still want you

but

i still dont know if you need me at all

but

im going to hang in there till the end

but

trust me, and stay with me

cause

im with you

work work work

went back to work today....

it sucked

all those shit and shit and shit

never go bowling today....

Family issues

just pissed at my dad at the phone, i called him and just SHUT his mouth up than i was halfway spitting fire at him the phone got cut off. hes been calling me this few days saying how hard it is to send me money every month when he hasent give me a penny in 10 mother fucking years and now he still goes to gamble and shit,(he is hao lian) so ya...i called him back spit fire at him and the phone got cut off or he was just pissd. but i dont care, im going to do wat i do, its time, this will be the last blog that im posting saying this, from tommrrow on,

IM BACK!

oh and FUCK my dad.......

if you see this dad, its going to be the last time you see the word dad coming out of my mouth you son of a bitch jackass mother fucker using all your 93 year old mother's coffin money these 10 years instead of earing a FUCKING penny and ya, thats right, F-U.

peace out.

IM PREPARED

Im ready to bring it on.

next week

study for permit test
study for another SAT
study for another ACT
study for School
Start playing basketball

and im ready, cause i walk ALONE

lets rock it

Crappy SAt score

i got a CRAPPY SAT score...pretty sad about it...

taking subject test this saturday....

tommrrow free dance

but there is smackdown on tv......dont know which one to do

next friday no school cause veterans day

today watchin NBA on TNT.....

its almost december...well not yet but ya......

its almost the time iv been waiting for a while....

but.............

i just dont understand

you came online

you accept those testimonials

but if you dont

why did you you accept them?

there are things which i just dont understand?

maybe its just that you still want me as a friend and you think that i will think that you are mean if you dont accept those testimonials?

im confused.....

but im still hanging in there

NBA season!!!

ya NBA season is here

lakers won first game im happy

tommrrow alot of games....

things are okay right now i guess

but its going to get out of hand pretty soon....

and so ya....

IM DOING JUST FINE!