i think before i talk but i still dont think before i call

omg...worst day of my life, worst than the first time, the words STFU suppose to be happy, suppose to be the word of glory because in WWE it stands for a submission used by the champion john cena and it represents SHUT THE FUCK UP........but though when i see those words again, not refering to john cena's trademark finisher, i was shocked, it was the last word that could come out from a girls mouth, not only her, but any girl, if they say STFU, you are so done, so i guess im done, it gave me this sudden chill as if it suddenly snowed and i was naked. that was it, i think before i talk now but i still dont think before i call, 1 call, 2 person, 3 girls, 4 people online, 5.a.m going to bed, ruined my day, just that one call, that one call made the mistake that will never be forgived, im sinned, for that very mistake that i sinned for.......im sorry god....please forgive me......you said that as long as we confess, you will forgive us regardless of our sins. i pray to you god to forgive me...........................................for that i regret making that phone call which i still dont know why is it my fault really.